I woke up this morning feeling just like this picture and I wanted to pull the covers right back over my body and stay in the freaking bed. Have you ever felt like that? And if so, do you ever think about what got you to this point and how you can change it? Well, as I was laying in bed, I started thinking about what's got to change in my life to change what and how I'm feeling today. So that next Monday can be a little different from today.
I will admit, some of what I'm feeling is just plain old fatigue. I've been working on a project,
#RLTevent (twitter hashtag) for the last few weeks and have not allowed myself any rest. I've been an overachiever at my best. That's my thought. For Real... I can stop saying that I'm going to balance my time and just do it. Working 10-12 hours a day is not good for anyone and especially not a person with a damaged immune system. As with anything, all you can do is your best. And, you don't have to kill yourself in the process.
Another part of what I'm feeling today is my illness. AIDS always seems to live up to it's promise. It's a hell of a disease that attacks when you least expect it. I know what you are going to say. And I agree. Yes, I am blessed to have lived so long with this disease. But let me tell you, longevity has not made the living with it any easier, not one day! I think it's the being helpless that's the worst. Most times I can't do a damn thing about what's happening. I have to go with the flow. Get the medical help that I need and keep it moving. It is what it is...
Yes, we can treat you, but you really don't want to end up with this Bitch of a disease. Keep yourself Protected!!
OK, the other part of my Blue Monday is the fact that I'm still struggling with some "issues" that I can't seem to shake no matter how hard I try. They say that time will heal all wounds. But that's not always true. In fact, time can sometimes be your worst enemy. Sometimes it's so deep that we are in way over our heads. And without the proper help sadness turns into depression. If a particular thing lingers in your heart and spirit to long, it becomes like a sore that festers and runs. Can't change the situation, but you can change how you feel about it... So I'm gonna work on making that change today and get the help that I need to get to a better place in my heart and spirit.
Yes, the beginning of the week is always a good time to take an assessment. Where am I? How did I get here? Do I like it or not? And what do I need to change what I don't like? So, instead of me giving into my Blue Monday, I evaluated what got me to this place and what I can do differently to change it. What are you gonna do today to change what you don't like?
Tea began as medicine and morphed into a beverage of choice!
I don't quite remember when I fell in love with tea but I do remember the most 
Until recently I had never drank Peppermint Tea made with loose leaves. And Honestly, I will probably never go back. The freshness of loose Peppermint Tea cannot be denied. When I open the can of 
I love to read! Inside a book I escape into someone else's life. There is something wonderful about turning to the next page of a wonderful story. Something intoxicating about the smell of the book and the story it brings to life. Reading brings me joy, and these days with my health in the balance, I find solace in my books.
