Yes, it is true that I am sick. But it is also true that I am getting better. I’ve been off my HIV medication now going into my third week and I can see slow improvement. My diarrhea has completely stopped. I’m not as nauseous all day everyday. Just periods throughout the day, especially after I eat. I’m able to eat more food each day. But it is still hit or miss. Like yesterday I was able to eat peach cobbler but then the ice cream was too sweet, the salad but then the dressing made me sick to my stomach. I can eat a cupcake but not the icing. So while I see some progress I know that I am still not at my normal.
And yes, work is behind, but I’m writing a blog today. I’m on the road speaking today and I answered at least 50 of my emails so far today. So it’s all in perspective. We are a greedy society. American’s over indulge in everything. As an overachiever I have to remind myself that a blessing is a blessing. Like my girlfriend Alicia was in town. I didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked, but I did get to see her. She did made it count. She came bearing gifts, with lots of love and that’s all that matters. What comes from the heart touches the heart no matter how big or small. And likewise some movement is better than no movement.
Last week I said it was better to muddle through chaos then to be stuck in chaos. Today I’m suggesting that we have to keep it all in perspective. Call a spade a spade in both good and in bad. So often we get stuck on what didn’t happen and how we want it to happen that we rarely stop and take account of the goodness that is happening. God makes no mistakes and what is suppose to happen does. Surrender your greediness to God’s goodness and it will then open the flood gates for the blessings to overflow.