What am I talking about? Well, some of us get stuck in the "It" and can't see our way out of it. Yes, you are really out of, "It" but the memory of being in, "It" has taken on a new life. All the pain and unhappiness that, "It" caused takes center stage. And the spirit of, "It" begins to hold you hostage. As you move toward 2012, you must free yourself from the regret of, "It" and reflect as a way to move toward deliverance from the, "It." This will allow you to move forward and away from, "It," and towards a better you!
But for some of us, midstream you started to feel uncomfortable, you started to second guess the, "It" but you thought you were too far in to change your course. While others, thought the, "It" was exciting as hell, that is, until that hell began to get hot and the heat and only the heat made you see, "It,' for what it really is.
No, those nights I cried my eyes out because he was somewhere getting high off crack-cocaine didn't matter because when, "It," returned, good Lawd my toes curled again. But when my toes began to burn, I had to make the hardest decision ever, to take a different path to save my feet. Over time you see, the fire started to rise from my toes upward and my brokenness was on this path. One day, I got the courage and I stopped the madness!
I can stay mad, frustrated disappointed, angry, and bitter and let it take on a spirit of its own and that path let me tell you, feeds into brokenness in a different way then the path you were originally on.
So what he lied and lied and lied. So what I trusted, trusted and trusted. If I stay in the regret of either of these, I will never leave this situation and it will hold me hostage for the rest of my life.
Post Script: Please visit the other post in this series