Yes, I would go to the store every now and then, but the task was physically just too much for me and I've had to get most of my groceries delivered by Pea Pod. That's a great service, but it's limited. Plus, there's nothing like being able to walk those aisles and get what you really want, but more importantly, just the ability to do it, is a blessing.
|Week Of IV Medication|
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not confused that some people don't have money for groceries and I'm grateful for the money to buy. I don't want you to think I'm minimizing that fact. It's just that I'm also grateful for the ability to perform this simple task. Walking has been an issue for me in the months past.
First, there was the herpes that was painful between my legs, then the neuropathy that was painful to my feet. It feels like someone is sticking pins in the bottom of my feet. While the pain has not totally subsided, I thank God the pain is reduced greatly.
Doing simple things just wasn't happening. Oh yeah, let's not forget the just flat out fatigue from the IV medication that zapped the freaking life out of me. There were days when I didn't want to wash my ass, more less, go get groceries.
But ain't I glad trouble don't last always. Yep, I'm gettin my groove back. The herpes is all gone, the IV medication is out of my system and I'm all healed down bottom!
Yep! I'm gettin my groove back. We never think about the simple things that a person cannot do when they are sick, but I face it every single time I get shut down. Its like my entire life stops.
Yes, I try to keep up as best as I can. There's a part of me that cannot let AIDS take everything I got, but certainly, I'm not able to do half of what I'm able to when all things are equal. Now be clear, there are still limitations with my, "Normal" like HIV related fatigue, mild neuropathy, medication side-effects, mainly head-aches, Functional Bowel Syndrome, which creates, diarrhea, daily nausea and food sensitivity; Sometimes, just the taste of food makes me sick. It's a lot to deal with on a daily basis, but over the years, I'm able to manage it, figure it out, fight it. The bottom line, I'm able to keep it moving in spite of it all, but lately, keeping it moving was at a very, very, very slow pace.
Now that I'm back to my, "Normal," the most difficult thing for me is going to be creating balance. I'm so behind in all my tasks, I want to do it all in one flash. The overachiever in me wants all of my life back as soon as possible; But I decided last night, that I'm going to pace myself. I'm just too happy to be able to do the simplest things right now.
Hang on for dear life because as sure as I'm typing this right now, a change will come. Yep, that's exactly what I did. I kept holding on. I kept doing what I needed to do for my health to get better. I took the hits one bunch at a time. Now today here I am, I Got my Groove Back!