Anyhoo, I went to my jewelers and played in the fine stuff and then came home. I love jewelry and it don't cost a darn thing to try it on.
Yes, the IV medication has started to kick my ass; diarrhea and nausea are number one. Yet, I'm hanging. God has got my spirit and so far, so good. This is what I'm saying, I am not gonna allow this it get the best of me this time around.
Well, I'm sure I will have some bad days, but I'm gonna try like hell to keep the best of me. I was so looking forward to this birthday count down and then this, my health decided to act a fool. But guess what? Nothing else has changed, As sure as I'm alive, I'm counting down and on May 22 I will be 50 years old. This means that I would have lived 29 years with HIV and 20 years with AIDS. This means I've lived over half my life with a disease that should have taken me out of here a good 16-17 years ago.
Yes, it is true, the longer that I am on this medication the sicker I am and the less I'll be able to do. Right now the infection is so bad, I just don't see myself getting off quicker than 20 days or more. Even with this understanding, what I know for sure: God has got this and I'm staying as close to God as I can and with that single act of closeness to God, I got a new attitude!
Post Script: I want to share my devotional scripture for today;
Though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kind of trials. These have come so that your faith- of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire- may proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor, I Peter 1:6-7
Today's Video! Day 35! Count Down To 50! New Attitude!