|Picc line last time I was on IV Meds.|
I contracted herpes in college before HIV, but now years later my immune system is so shot to hell, it can't fight off the herpes. The herpes also attacks my nervous system and cause me to have pain in my legs, feet and back. It feels like someone is sticking pins in them all day long. This genital herpes I have is mostly on my vulva. One sore this time that feels like someone is pouring alcohol in a open wound all the time. This drug resistant herpes I have began about 4 years ago. The doctor's only conclusion, is that there is a part of my immune system that won't repair itself nor will it fight this particular strain of the herpes virus off.
Remember all AIDS really is...is having no immune system. You get sick basically because your immune system can't fight whatever attacks it.
|A Week of IV Meds.|
For many people with AIDS, herpes is what we consider an opportunistic infection. For many people with HIV and genital herpes it can become a nasty combination for our health.
So here I go again. I will be on a 2 1/2 hour drip 2 times a day until the sore on my vulva totally disappears. The last time I was on IV medication, it took 34 days. Remember, the stress around my Delta membership being rescinded affected my healing. The side-effects are nausea, diarrhea and extreme fatigue, but I'm going to keep pressin as much as I can.
Lies are dangerous for the person who tell them and the person that believes them. Its a distortion of reality and when the truth is finally revealed its a hard thing to process and honestly you don't know who or what to trust.
So here I am, putting me back together again. All I can do is move forward. First step for me was believing the truth over and above the lies and manipulation. Then I had to take my control back! Take my reality back!
They provided what I needed very well, but the person that I thought had become my family was a lie. When I really think about it, I have no idea who they are. NONE!
But now that I know the lie, I cannot under any circumstance allow myself to live that lie. My entire life is about being authentic, it's God's gift to me, to give to you.
So here I am putting my pieces back together and trying to manage my stress level so I can heal quickly. This is not what I wanted for my life, but it is what it is. I hate most when other people's behavior alters your life. But all you can do is learn the lesson and never forget. Pastor Jakes said to me when I sought him out for counsel over this matter, "You live to learn, you die to forget." I count it another lesson learned!